Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Vote for Adam!

Hey hey hey! If you watch American Idol, you know Adam Lambert! He is my absolute favorite! I have been his fan from the start. I saw his first audition in San Francisco and it was amazing! He was in Wicked! I love his stlye and how he is classy punk. He is way cooler than the Jonas Brothers!! He is also really nice ,too. He always has a smile on his face. I know there have been some pictures going around, but seriously, he is an amazing singer and person. Don't let a few pictures muddy your thoughts about the awesome Adam! Vote vote vote!

Berry :~)

Pink!

Hello there! So I found out what Pinkberry was! Its Fro-Yo! I love it! Even though I've never had it, it looks so good! They only have it in New York and California. While we are on the topic of pink, today my friends and I finished our Medieval castle! It looks awesome!! The best part of it is that it's HOT PINK! Yes, it is HOT PINK!! We spray painted it with neon pink spray paint and it looks really cool! On another Pink topic: I love Victoria's Secret PINK! I love the bright collegiate design! It is so cute and I love all their clothes. Well, I hope you have a very pink day!!

Berry :)

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Like a Handprint on my Heart

"You'll be with me like a handprint on my heart.
And now whatever way our stories end,
I know you have rewritten mine by being my friend"
-For Good from Wicked

These past two days have been the hardest and most devastating that I have ever experienced. I don't know how I am going to recover, but I am going to be sad as long as I need to be sad. I recieved the news on Sunday that my good friend had been killed. She went to my church and I've known her since 3rd grade. My best friend had been murdered. You have propbably heard the story on the news, so I'm not going to repeat any details. I'm going to use this blog as a way to remember my good friend.

She always had a way of brightening up a room. I always felt joy whenever we were in Sunday school class together. We had sleepovers and played games. It seemed like we've grown closer this year more than ever. I felt like I could tell her anything and she would understand. We had been through a lot together.

When I first found out, I was in pure shock. This couldn't have happened to anyone, especially my best friend. I cried the entire day and went to our church to light a candle in the sanctuary. Surprisingly on Monday, I was quite calm. I didn't shed a tear all day. It seemed to go away for the day. But that night, it finally started to sink in: my friend was gone. I cried literally the whole night. Then today, I went to school late because I just needed to sleep in and I wasn't feeling well. Today at school was the worst. Everybody knew and came up to me and said they were so sorry I knew how I felt. I just smiled and said thank you. But they didn't really understand and they might never will. Everything I saw reminded me of my friend and it was hard not to cry.

I really want to go to her service tonight that her school is having, but my mom wants me go to our church and do some grief counceling instead. Then tomorrow is her official service at our church, where me and my other friend will be reading a poem that she wrote. I hope I will be ok and not cry while I am reading.

Right now I am just sad. My family was over yesterday for my aunt's birthday and kept saying "you can wallow in the sadness or keep moving on". I know they meant it right, but right now I just feel like being sad until I'm not sad anymore. They say these things can make you a stronger person, but I don't see how. I just want my friend to know that I love her.peace.


Berry